A Personal Chess History, A Poem By Kyran Lucien
Submitted by on Thu, 03/25/2010 at 6:58am.
A personal chess history.......





I.
I’m a man full of memories,
And every moment of my life,
Present or past,
I’m full of them like the heaven full of stars.....
To me, every object I see, every word I say,
My dog resting on my lap,
My girl lying beside me in my bed,
Ascribes me to a time when I was learning to feel
I have a history of my own,
Many things to mouth about,
And many things I learned at home
Good or bad, that made the man I am.....
My love for music, books or chess,
My love for friends,
Not measurable in a human way,
My opinions on god, good and evil,
Distorted by early misinformation,
My concepts about faith,
Inflamed by early readings,
And my eternal wish to fly away,
Living my life like a migrant bird,
Traveling around the orb,
Inspired by the beauty of being alive.
I wanted to know who I am.
I've always did, I still do,
I don't want to step the back door
birdbrained, unwitting, unsensible,
That’s why I started this personal history with chess in it.
II.
I shall begin talking about my father,
The most enigmatic human being,
I ever came across,
He was distant, quiet, a stranger,
My very first memories of life,
My very first memories of him,
Are related to a chessboard,
And my longing to be his friend.
A chessboard Immobile for days in the same place,
He’d practice on it his solitary matches,
Learning the labyrinth of possibilities
Just for the sake of it,
I wouldn’t ever ask anything, it was banned.
I wouldn't even try to be like him
I'd say to myself everytime I found
that silence unbeareable.
And I didn't want to play chess
Not for a while, nor staying home,
Not through my busy early youth
I just wanted to breath freedom.
Experience the rackety earth beyond my door,
Screaming lawlessly I was full of it,
But then somehow I'd be confronted with the real world,
And with family struggles and depressions,
I'd learned that everything was not right,
That old philosopher Pangloss was severely wrong,
We didn't live in "The Best Of All Possible Worlds",
As his own demoralized experiences advised.
He wasn't fond of music
At least not the way I am
But my grandma was
And she thaught me all about feelings.
She taught me to read, to play, to be free,
She told me stories I will never forget,
She read to me Shakespeare's tales,
Through Charles and Mary Lamb's eyes......
She kept from the fact that extreme beauty
Always hides extreme madness,
She kept from me how Mary Lamb
On a fit of anger stabbed both her parents
She always kept from me the ugliness of our world,
She protected me and made me conscious,
She tried hard to make me a believer,
And that's probably the only thing she'd ever failed to achieve....
There were too many gods and godesses,
Too many sprites and spirits
throughout the whole history
of civilization too take one god seriously....
There were simply,
Too many notes in that symphony.....
To Be Continued......
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Solo work from the talented synth player from Porcupine Tree. Track is off of the album Stranger Inside.